Dear grandma,

Should one day I didn't get to be by your side the moment you're having your last breath, please know that I am always out there to make you proud. I may not be the smartest of all your grandchildren nor the one who resembles you but I always wanna be the best in your book. Even though I am busy and can't visit you everyday, I want you to know you're always in my heart and mind. I've never once forgotten the places you used to bring me when I was younger. I spent every minute and second with you and I never felt lonely. You used to wait for me by the overhead bridge without fail with an umbrella be it rain or shine just so that I can be home safely and dry from school. I always blamed you for making me fat because you never fail to cook delicious meal everyday. I miss your cooking so much I wish you could still have the strength to do so now. Many things are different now; my surroundings, my life, my feelings.. 20 years has passed, my footsteps are getting longer and yours shorter. I've overgrown you so much now. Whenever I am walking with you, I wish you could have walked faster so that we are able to shop at more places. But whatever it is, I hate to let you walk behind me because you will never leave me behind when my pace were shorter. Today I was terrified that you couldn't recognise your own neighbourhood. You don't have to apologise for the sudden blank. It's not your fault. Sorry for raising my voice at you when you look so lost. I bet you didn't see me tearing up silently after that. I was scared and still is. My biggest fear now is that you won't be able to recognise me one day if I were to be away for a long period of time... I love you so much nenek. Thinking about you each and everyday hurts like a knife piercing through my heart.

Your fat cucu.